audio transcripts: here
06/17/2026 wed
“i called 988” live zoom event
wed 06/17/2026 5:30-7p central US
https://us06web.zoom.us/j/8288272211?
meeting ID: 828 827 2211
ig: here
tik: here
fb: here
li: here
yt: here
red: here
![anyone watching: this is living w suicide.
@annemossrogers , im crying as i write this.
suicide is intense for me this week. i wanted to thank you. you helped me in pushups and perspective. your 4 became 4 of mine.
an intense release balances the intensity of suicide for me. there are names that carry me past the point where its realistic to keep going (in 12 pushups + life).
one way i live with suicide: go past where i know i have to stop. with awareness, i know that same capacity can end my life.
im still here.
knuckles are progressive harm reduction. i throw hands w 10 yrs of practice and strength. i release intense energy by punching cinderblock walls, exterior doors, dumpsters, water bag in my garage, anything that wont break (after sheetrock and w the exception of my hands, which do break).
flat-hand pushups arent an option for me after 2 wrist surgeries in 2015 from a crash in a bike race (prior to and unrelated to punching).
+12 knuckle pushups = a close-to-equivalent impact to punching things that dont break. takes strong thumbs.
my need for release of energy doesn’t disappear.
i have to find somewhere safe to put it.
AnneMoss i meant to ask you in harrisburg how many you’re up to.
i got [12 = starts w tre + annies the hardest + i call will] * animals
(12-4)*6=48
got it. thanks for your help @annemossrogers
my last pushup before this: 07/07/2026 (at waterbag pickup = 35)
#math #higherpower #stillhere #suicideawareness #suicideprevention #pushupforsuicide](https://scontent-den2-1.cdninstagram.com/v/t51.82787-15/774128417_17980895361117069_5653200090654251735_n.jpg?stp=dst-jpg_e35_tt6&_nc_cat=106&ig_cache_key=Mzk2NTczNTg1MDQ1MjAwMjQwNw%3D%3D.3-ccb7-5&ccb=7-5&_nc_sid=a54f6b&efg=eyJlZmdfdGFnIjoiYmVzdF9pbWFnZV91cmxnZW4uQ0xJUFMuQzMifQ%3D%3D&_nc_ohc=QadeRGMqUJ4Q7kNvwF-4KSJ&_nc_oc=AdoYXw4nX3kG4m_UzZ4-FzappdoxJUI4DjgONsDiX-vJKDSyQ2TlEwOUJ9sR9kA_BDs&_nc_zt=23&_nc_ht=scontent-den2-1.cdninstagram.com&edm=ANo9K5cEAAAA&_nc_gid=-6ycYEfZbeCDHVslMl7kcA&_nc_tpa=Q5bMBQKQOYu9HZZgjyaI5yo6TUwaSpzoia-4eKMqllQLqWVN-JAPKVYTRX9Dw1MJb2AShCqVGg34PQet&oh=00_AQKEY3uodVA3QmIsixGkOifqIaMAzZNw1qa7xTcFumOQfg&oe=6A997A58)
![days of the week?
hours of the day?
[in suicide]
# iykyk
#suicide
@suicidenoted](https://scontent-den2-1.cdninstagram.com/v/t51.71878-15/761546881_1341241154888769_4772461668422350777_n.jpg?stp=dst-jpg_e35_tt6&_nc_cat=105&ig_cache_key=Mzk1MzgxMjAxODIyMDg5NDY0Mg%3D%3D.3-ccb7-5&ccb=7-5&_nc_sid=a54f6b&efg=eyJlZmdfdGFnIjoiYmVzdF9pbWFnZV91cmxnZW4uQ0xJUFMuQzMifQ%3D%3D&_nc_ohc=xK0I7rd-bfgQ7kNvwGmToF_&_nc_oc=AdogEbymGmXqRKx5Zg8CXXkrFgJggtKWumQPqb2-tW42imzgeByxqq5QNKJWpGyolLo&_nc_zt=23&_nc_ht=scontent-den2-1.cdninstagram.com&edm=ANo9K5cEAAAA&_nc_gid=-6ycYEfZbeCDHVslMl7kcA&_nc_tpa=Q5bMBQIFU4TCqFMNbfqexCCunSlAEcSISzTeX3FTEyUFBiYsIHvsos-E8T9gyek990Fc6oLJg4tuXEsr&oh=00_AQJM7QhpXGPr0XdxHts9eyIH6Si8tLwckp3sP6hXzbMeiA&oe=6A996650)
